XUE's thoughts...

2004-10-20T17:26:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy that exams's over!! and i've enjoyed myself these few daes.. I'm so sad now.. haiz~ Yesterdae i enjoyed myself alot.. I went to east coast park with my teacher and friends because of this champion workshop to prepare us for next yr SYF.. I learned to play kayaking, fencing, beach volleyball and ROLLER BLADING.. Roller blading is the sports i enjoyed most yesterdae! its was e first time i learn roller blading, now my backside so pain, coz i kept falling down.. Yup! This stupid guy juz now told me something which makes me so sad n angry.. He is an idiot, a big fat liar! haiz, i hate him!! I will be getting my results back.. I'm so scare, so afraid to see my results.. haiz, i dunno wad to do.. Bringing marie to my church on sundae, reali excited coz beri long nvr go le.. i miss all my friendz there, Geez..

So sad, stress, vex! Haiz~

2004-10-10T09:55:00.000-07:00

Here to update again. I felt that, alot of people hate me.. Maybe its all of them, haiz~ No one loves me! Has not been getting good sleep from the first dae of e month.. I will quarrel with him almost everydae, if not him.. then its someone else.. Almost everydae! it hurts, it reali do.. Then the tap will starts to give out as much water.. Mom saes that i'm not strong enough coz i cried in front of her that dae.. I'm not strong enough to b a girl, am i? How i wish i can control the tears n emotion like what my friends does.. Some more, i'm having Exams now and i cant reali concentrate on my studies coz of all these things that is happening around me.. IM SO STRESSED UP MAN!! Someone help me! haiz, please.. I'll sure fail de ='( Reali sad! So vex.. Todae marie nvr call me, its been a long time since i went to church. Then marie asked me along last last week to her church.. Im not use to it, i love e church that i used to go, i miss my friends there.. But, its too far! Maybe after my exams ba.. Should i?? =(

2004-08-25T20:35:00.000-07:00

Not in a good mood.. Feeling sad dont know coz of what reason.. Have been feeling scare, nvr go church for e past few dunno how many weeks alr.. Its gives me the feeling that i don belong there anymore.. Like what Davin said, hope that i'm not at the stage where i will give up on believing and to stop going to church.. Sad! There's a big bruise on my leg, its so painful.. E first time i felt so painful, its coz of my cca (dance).. Sianz, todae i cried in skool coz of my stupid home tutor whom i hate a lot.. Common test dunno how to do, afraid that i'll fail.. Have been very unlucky recently, lost $70 ytd then e mail and gunbound got hacked coz of my brother's fault.. I can't even sign into my msn coz of the stupid hacker changing my password.. Sigh~ I dont know what the world is going on and dont have e feeling of staying here anymore.. =( Think i'll end here todae.. I'm sorry lord! -God bless-

2004-07-26T22:18:00.000-07:00

Wow, it's been a long time since i wrote this. Hehe, it reali change alot le wor.. Erm.. has been feeling quite moody now adaes. But it seems to be improving alot le.. Yup, Its late, i'm gonna sleep soon.. OU DE YANG's songs so nice!! Love it, now listening to it =).. Tmr having CCA (dance) again.. Sian~ Legs gonna be painful/hurt again. WAHAHA =X. Tmr the st john oso very ke lian coz got to march alot! Agnes and Stacy, GO FOR IT! Yeah~ Hehe, dont give up on things so easily wor.. This is a nice web, u can go in..

www.theinterviewwithgod.com <--- the interview with god
www.pathways-to-peace.com <--- pathways to peace

Its teachs us alot of thingy, go to the presentation then view it.. =) gotta sleep le.. nite nite everyone.. Muackz!!

2004-07-13T00:23:00.000-07:00

Yoyoyo~ hehe.. FINALLY reached home le. Was so tired after 2 and the half hours of dancing. Leg so painful sia, sOb SoB~ ='( COz of the new shoe n the kneeling down during dance lor.. Anywae, the dance is kinda fun.. But 'Stella' was sick.. Hope that she'll be fine soon.. Yesterdae i was feeling so bad, feel like vomiting, having headache and very tired.. Dunno what happen to me, haha.. Hope dat thursdae's morning rains, lOls =x Coz, for the past 2 weeks, during our P.E. lesson, it was raining. If it's raining again, it will sure be very funny. Haha.. Anyway, everyone take care ;)

2004-07-10T21:35:00.001-07:00

Have been crying e whole afternoon yesterdae n the dae before that night.. Haiz~ No one is really by my side comforting me, im feeling reali sad. I just cant control myself.

That day it was kind of late, he knew i was alone and was worried about me. So he came to look for me, just wanting to send me home. He fell on the way to meet me but he doesnt care and picked up his bicycle in no hesitation, without letting me waiting. He was with his two friends, Matthias and Jun wei. When he reached Pasir Ris interchange, he called me and asked me where am i. I was sitting down in an area where there is lesser people, and was blocked by this pillar coz i dont anyone to see me (feeling reali sad that time). So when i was walking towards him, i hid but Jun wei saw. He came towards me after that and told his friends, saying: "Don't tell what has happen ar!" After, his friends went off coz they said that they doesnt want to disturb us. When i looked at him, i saw that his chin and hand was injured and so i checked out his keen(it was injured too, bleeding). And so i knew what has happened but not comfirm about it coz he doesnt want to tell me what happened to him. When i saw that injury, i cried out straight away.. And so, he walked me home. My mum called me after and asked me to go home. Yup, i was on the way home but i lied to her i was in the interchange as i'm not far away from the interchange(alr cross one road). In a very angry manner, she told me to get a taxi home(so i cried even more, horrible!). She did called me before that and i was with 'Agnes' at Tampines' Long john silver. She asked me when will i be home n i said after i've finished my food. I was happy for a moment when i'm in long john coz i saw my Primary skool fren, Faiqah. She and her groups of friends was very nice to me when in primary skool so i like them alot. Too bad i can't get her number from her coz she's working. Haiz~

Just, there is alot of things happening. And i doesnt know what to do about it. I didnt go to church nor my aunt's shop today. I have alot of homework to deal with and i'm feeling so cold everytime. Even though its a hot sunny dae, haiz..

Dear heavenly father, please forgive me for the wrong things that i've done, please guide me along my way and teach me the right thing to do. I'm sorry Lord. Please blessed everyone and make them healthy as the weather these few days wasn't really good. Thank you for everything that You've given to everyone and me as well. In Jesus name, i pray. Amen

So take care guys. Smile always! 11th july 2004, 1:17PM Sunday

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DuNn0

2004-07-02T20:13:00.000-07:00

Haiz, have not been in a good mood recently.. Yesterdae i went out with my best friend 'Stacy'.. It was real fun being with her, we laugh all the way.. Went shopping n stuff, walk the whole afternoon (dead beat).. Haha~ On thursdae, all the sec 3 class was having entrepreneurship.. Haha, it was so fun, our class sells brownie n stuff.. I didnt get to taste that brownie.. Hahaaaaaaa, but i heard lots of people sae its was very nice.. It was brought to skool by fahana.. Haiyo, have loads of homework coming in since skool reopen.. It's juz the first week of skool leh.. Just cant take it lah.. haha, nvm lor.. well, everyone take care wor.. Actuali no one knows about my blog here coz i didnt tell anyone.. reali hope that someone will understand how i feel one dae. ^-^

2004-06-29T05:16:00.000-07:00

•°¤--»° [ .Jè§š£îÑ. ] °«--¤°• Why are u always so sad?! Haiz~ i'm just a weak girl.. My maid is leaving tmr, she cried when she is closing the door just now.. Haiz, she cried and hug mi, i dont know what am i suppose to do. I'm also very sad. I dont want her to leave either! I cried too.. haiz, i dont know anything. Todae's skooling was quite ok, didnt have spot check coz form teacher was absent. Have dance, is quite of fun. Irene tay, my mei mei or daughter's mother gave me one shirt. i doesnt know why, but its nice.. reali appreciate it alot. THANKS IRENE! Haiz, i think have to stop here. Take care everyone

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2004-06-28T00:12:00.000-07:00

Its been quite some time that i didnt enter any entry for this le. Juz reach home from skool not long ago.. Haiz, i'm feeling reali sad todae although its e first dae of skool. Was happy in the morning when going to skool but when its my CME period, i became sad. I cried again todae, my new CME teacher, stella tan. KAN WO BU SHUANG! That time when having cross country, she took my ring away from mi! I'm angry, now she took my necklace that my best friend 'Stacy' gave mi for my birthdae present! I think there will b a misunderstanding between us le coz there is an 'i love u' word on it.. The ring n the necklace are so precious to me.. Todae i reali did try my best to go and like her but i can't after she took my personal things away from me again. Haiz, why am i so suay? Most of my subject teacher change le and they are all i dont like de.. Sigh~ 28th June 2004 - 3:41 p.m, mondae

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2004-06-24T05:24:00.000-07:00

Im feeling so tired everydae, feeling sad too... Was left alone at home again, the one that im close wif went out (aunt n cousin).. Not coming back home and stay tonight, so i'll be sleeping alone le.. No one reali understand how i feel, im feeling so bad everydae. Im juz a very sensitive n weak girl, cry over small matters. Haiz, how i wish i can find the person who can understand me well enough.. There is, he's very trust-worthy but its no use coz i feel very bad when he asked mi what happens. So im not very comfortable in answering him sometimes. I juz wan someone who i can talk comfortably wif, and to be very trustworthy. Sad~ =( Thursday, 08.55pm

2004-06-23T05:18:00.000-07:00

A sad and boring dae it is todae. Haiz, having dinner, doing holidae homework, watching tv and using laptop now. Have to do so many things, now there is no one at aunt's house except mi n the maid. All went to have dinner to celebrate father's dae although its kind of late one. I doesnt want to go coz i dont haf the mood ba.. Cried in the afternoon, get scolded by my uncle coz i wasnt at my sit during working time. I was actuali at the back, somewhere near kitchen, coz my aunt was teaching me how to make porridge for my baby cousin. I feel like crying before that le coz is like that someone does not care bout mi. Juz not having a good day todae. I felt that its like i'm a weak girl.. Will cry over a small matter, so embarrasing! Haiz, sad.. Feel like going home... Wednesdae, 2045 hr

2004-06-22T06:47:00.000-07:00

Today was an enjoyable dae.. Didnt reali work during working time, was resting n taking care of my baby cousin.. At seven plus, went to pasa malum(night market).. Ate alot, there is a coconut which is jelly de.. It's so nice, yummy yummy! Try it if u have the chance wor.. Yesterdae was Davin's birthdae n i went to Eastcoast park yar? U guys know what, he was at the Eastcoast park that time but didnt met him. It was juz a coincident that we at the Eastcoast Park at the same time.. Now im watching HAI YOU MING TIAN at channel 8, its a nice show.. Must watch o!! Going to bathe soon le, then take care guys! bubbyeZz.. Tuesdae, 09.55pm

2004-06-20T21:57:00.000-07:00

Mondae, 21th june 01.20pm, Davin's birthdae, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVIN!! Davin, a church friend of mine, the first time i communicate with him was by sms.. It was real funny that time coz i dont know who is he til i went to church that week.. Stayed at aunt's house last night, air-corn was so cold.. I shivered and cover the blanket from head to toe, like i've seen a ghost! lOl, todae didnt reali help out in the shop. Was in the room shaking leg, enjoying show.. But later, will have to work le. Haha~ Going to East Coast park for picnic later with my younger cousins n aunt, was so excited bout it. My cousins is all so cute, i love them so much! Alot of them is younger than mi, IM SO OLD MAN!! lOl~ My another aunt was having some problem so didnt go to shop, hope that she's alright wor.. The time n date organiser by this blogger thingy is wrong! So will have to write the time n date everytime i write, haz.. O well, stop til here, dunno what more to write! Anyway.. Hope that my aunt will b fine soon. All the best n hope all ur wish come true, enjoy urself Davin n to all the others whom i know, Takaire.. =)

A Sad Beginning...

2004-06-19T19:25:00.000-07:00

Sundae 10.30am, didnt go to church!! Woke up late in the morning, intend to go for the morning class but cant make it. Put alarm @ 7am, it rang but i snooze it, it was kinda upset when i woke up at 10 and found out that i cant make it for the service at 1030. I am late for church almost everytime, i juz cant wake myself up at the time i wanted to (such a lazy girl this is!). Church was so far away from home, have to take a bus to e interchange first, take a mrt for bout 8 stops n after that to walk towards a bus stop for around 5-8 mins then lastly to take a bus for 9 stops. It took around 1 hours to reach church from my house! Even if i take a taxi there now, it will onli b the same. =( But nvm, coz my aunt's shop is rite beside the church that i go to, i'll b going there to help out soon. My mom will sometimes take the same bus n mrt with me but she didnt wake mi up for church. Maybe she doesnt know that i'll b going to church. My family is all buddhist but only me, loves to go to church. I believe in e lord so i think i'll be a free twinkle first!! Actuali for the blog address, there is my chinese name but i've forgotten all bout it, lol. There's onli a 89 at the back of it. So guys, what do u think about me now?? A lazy and forgetful girl rite, so change if u r juz like me, coz im trying to change too! Geez~ 11am

2004-06-18T23:31:00.000-07:00

This is my first blog, don't know how will it look like when it was published. I'm 15 this year, birthdae 30th May - female.. Saturdae, as usual, stays at home. As it was skool(june) holidae. Feeling so bored, nothing to do. Yesterdae juz came back from Aunt's house, was helping out in the shop as receptionist. It was so bored, sitting there, waiting for patient to come. Can't run anywhere, if caught, get scolded. Having so many homework during the holidae, haven even started with one. Skool's reopening soon, don't know if i can finish all my homework by then coz i'm a last minute person. =p My english is very poor, can anyone tell mi how can i improve on it?? For the MidYear Exam, I failed my english, the one and onli subject. Can't have the blog address that i wanted, it was unavailable!! Angry, grr~ I put it as xuemei coz i loves my chinese name. Feels good to have my own blog page anyway, can write my unhappiness n the things that is happening on it. Feeling sad now, there is no one to lend mi their shoulder to lean on. So i will juz have to take my pillow and treat it as one.

Please take note: Dont be like me, to be sad everytime. Coz you wont know what will happen after things have happened.. If you get sad or angry for one minute, isnt it 60 seconds of ur happiness wasted? So b happy rather than sad yar?? SMILE ALWAYS!!

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